This To Shall Pass...???

As most of you know since August I took up my passion with running. Unfortunately for my wonderful legs...they have decided they need a break. In January I went to see my doctor because my shins were hurting. Not just hurting...throbbing, aching...creating a numbness in my feet (while running). It hurt to place a sheet on them...that kind of hurting. I knew when I went in to see my doc that 'stress fractures' were most likely the cause. I have had them before...and the pain I had been experiencing was nothing short of what I remember 6 years ago.

She sent in a request for a bone scan which is where I later was told I also needed x-rays. At that point, I knew my shins were in trouble. I was in trouble. The thought that I couldn't run for a while was really disheartening. As much as it can be a struggle its also a release for me. Its a physical activity I do really enjoy, sweat and all. Its where I find myself letting go of stress and pushing myself to succeed. Its where I find accomplishment. I miss it right now. A lot!!!!

Tuesday I did the new bootcamp class at the gym. I was limited and it frustrated the sh*t out of me. I couldn't run up the stairs. I couldn't bounce myself up and down off the bosu ball. I felt really weak because of that. Because of my shins. Because maybe I haven't taken in enough calcium. Because maybe I should have slowed down on increasing my distance while running. Because maybe I need new shoes (well I know I need new shoes...but I didn't think they were worn out). Because maybe I pushed myself a little too hard. Ugh!!! I just need to vent...its been bugging me all week.

So it is said, "this to shall pass".

Then I hopped on the scale this morning...it is also rebelling against me (damn thing). Might be because I ate the sugar monsters I encountered ALL DAY LONG yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that. How dare they tempt me? They know I cave every time!

Everyone says take time and heal but its hard when you really really really want to do something. My doctor said 2 weeks ago I wasn't to not run for at least 2 more weeks.

This Monday that gives me the a-okay to try again...SLOWLY!